Do you ever feel like this little butterfly girl on a wheel, being stuck with pins......
I have just been reading the blog of my lovely cousin, Sue, you can visit her at Discombobula! She happened to have a really horrible exchange with a young guy at the station the other day, one of those moments when you want to run away and cry and not face anyone for a few hours! It made me think about the deep hurt and shame we cause each other on a daily basis, the throw away lines said in anger, the cutting words spat out when we feel crap about ourselves and want someone else to feel it too, even if it means making you feel worse in the long run. Why do we do it?
I sometimes feel mad at the world, I know many people do! maybe all of us at some point or other. What scares me is becoming more and more bitter as I get older, letting those hurts of the last 40 years eat me up and make me someone I'm not! I seem to get hurt by the same things now as I did at 10, I thought you were meant to grow a thicker skin as you got older!!
Its made me realise how important blogging can be, to blog and to read other people's. It can change your mood, getting a nice reply, a confirmation that someone thinks you are ok, and sometimes reading about other people's lives makes you forget your own nagging troubles or doubts, or maybe realise you have a lot to be thankful for! I love delving into other people's lives, Im nosey like that :) Yay for blogging!